Chapter 25

After Holden leaves Mr. Antolini's he walks to Grand Central Station and sleeps on a bench there. the next day he walks down fifth avenue, when he sees the children he feels overwhelmed and thinks that when he crosses a street he will disappear. Whenever he crosses a street he calls out to allie so he wont dissapear, and asking him to let him make it to the other side of the curb. He says he is going to leave New York and never go to school or home again.He imagines himself living byhimself and never talking to anyone and marrying a deaf mute. He goes to Phoebes school to return her the money she gave him. He gets even more depressed while he is there. He goes to the museum where he is going to meet Phoebe and shows two kids the mummies and they get scared and run off. Holden sees fuck you written on the wall for the second time that day and thinks that when he dies they will write that on his gravstone.Then he passes out but makes it seem like it wasnt a big deal. Phoebe arrives and wants to go with Holden, but he wont let her. he feels like he is going to pass out again. she wont look at him and gives him his hat back.he tells her he wont go and that she should go back to school, but she wont and he says he will take her to the zoo. they go to the zoo and on the way walk on seprate sides of the street, after they look at the animals they walk on the same side of the street but not side by side. Holden sees a carousel and gets Phoebe to go on it. they have made up now and Holden is wearing his hat and is feeling very happy and even thinks he might cry.

Holden is becoming extremely crazy. I dont even think he knows what he is doing. Allie's death is destroying him.